I'm calming down?

Yesterday I woke up and hung around the house. Figured I'd try and work on some art projects or writing or *something* creative that I used to do. My biggest accomplishment was cleaning up my closet. I also started to decorate a bottle. I've done two bottles, so I thought well why not add a third. I'm not really sure what to use them for; maybe vases or candle holders.My family was acting very nutty. I had a lot of laughs yesterday, though, so it was a good thing. My family went out to dinner, but I wasn't in the mood to leave the house. So I hung out and talked to B. He turned on the webcam for awhile, so I got to see his cute little face. I also updated my real diary, which often goes untouched. I think I pour myself into these online diaries and then there isn't anything left for my real diary, which is the one that will get passed down through my family. Today I woke up really late (grrr I hate that) and watched tv. Took a shower. I was going to go over and see Lisa since she's leaving tomorrow, but she called (from in front of the house) before I had a chance to finish getting ready. So she came in and we talked for awhile. Then she left to go finish packing and do those last minute things. If she can't find school housing at her new school she's just going to come back and live here for half a year and attend the CC with me (which would be very cool). If she stayed then she'd be here for Fall, which means we could go to the pumpkin patch and do all of the cool Fall things.I'm in a cleaning mood. Sometimes I just feel so neat and tidy, and I want to organize everything and make it look nice. I really hope I don't drive B nuts with my tidybowl girl hysteria. Today I feel calm, though, compared to how I was a couple days ago. Hyper as can be with adrenaline pumping a mile a minute.Tomorrow my brother is taking my car to work while his is in the shop. It's like okay that puts the job search on delay for a day.. blah.

Big pink pig

On the 15th Lisa and I went and saw Legally Blonde. It was a cute movie, not hilarious like they made it sound in commercials, but cute. Afterwards we went and had some fries at McDonald's. It was good to hang out with Lisa.. I don't do much with people so when I do it's like woah.. activities. We pretty much sat there and talked about school and made fun of people.On the 16th I woke up and felt like crap.. had an attack of my-period-came-early and cramps. Threw some clothes on and went to the dentist. He said my teeth were looking good. Took an x-ray of my mouth and determined I only have three wisdom teeth, and they're still pretty far up, so no need to worry about removing them as of yet.Went home.. spent the day laying around the house feeling nasty.Today I woke up and watched some TV. Jenny Jones was boring today. Seems like every time I'm home some stupid show is on, not anything cool like chics with plastic surgery who think they're all that, or out of control teens. Took a shower. Did some laundry. Talked to my B (who is *very* sexy, by the way). We discussed future plans, like school and his moving and visiting. Just the mention of that kind of stuff makes me happy.. it feels so good to know someone is on the same page as you. We looked into some moving costs (which is majorly jumping ahead of ourselves..) but I'd be dying of curiosity if we didn't. Grade report came in the mail. Oh sweet grades of mine. Oh yeah.. my mom has a flat tire so she took "my" car today. She didn't want to make dinner tonight (which was technically last night since it's 1 am)and since I wouldn't run to McDonald's for her she had a tantrum and locked herself in her room. After the big dinner debate I talked to B again and he said lots of cute little things that made me happy. I wish I could have his cuddles.*Pay more. Expect less. State Farm.*

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Oh yeah..*Pay more. Expect less. State Farm.*

Made the grade

Last night I did some knitting for my scarf. Today I got up and hung around the house. Went and laid out in the sun for awhile, then vacuumed and washed the car. Woo, finally got the chores out of the way. :P The mail came and still no tests. Grrr. After that I took a shower and got online to talk to my man (yesterday I said I was picking up on his grammar, etc., but it's not entirely from him, my mom makes up words and does things that contribute to the loss of writing ability). Anywho, so I talked to my man for awhile and Lisa and I made plans to go see a movie tomorrow. I'm very broke.. I need a job bad. Going out = spending money, which = scary.My uncle called from GA. I guess my cousin has been having pretty bad morning sickness, so she'll probably be losing her job due to missed time. He said that my aunt (who is my cousin's stepmother) doesn't want to be the step-grandmother to the child, so she's just to be known as "the chic that's married to grandpa." Mmmhmm. It was already sad that my cousin got pregnant outside of marriage at such a young age, but it's even sadder that her own stepmother won't have a part in the child's life. My uncle kept saying that my brother should get a girl pregnant so he won't be the only grandfather in the group, but my brother and my parents aren't jumping at that idea.In other family news, I e-mailed my cousin in FL and asked how the family is doing over there. I also recently found out that the land the family cabin is on has been pretty much entirely logged, and the debris pushed up against the entrance to the trail that leads up to the top of the mountain. So not only is the entire area a vast wasteland of dirt and stumps, you can't even climb the mountain to see the surrounding view. I just can't believe my family sometimes.. My parents, brother and I have missed the last five or six family events, and I was kind of feeling guilty about it. But the more I think about my family, the more I'm glad I didn't go participate in their stupid little celebrations. Why waste the time. Today Elise popped into my head. It's August.. she's leaving in August. She said she wanted to see me before she left. Ahhh! I don't think she will stop by, but everytime the doorbell rings I'm like shit, where can I hide? I really do not want to see that girl. I told Justin, Lisa and my brother that we should all go down to Dick's though and get some food. If she's there, well we can pretend we don't know her and tell the manager we saw her lick our food. Lauren IMed me a couple of times.. the first time she said some stupid line, and I was getting ready to respond and she said what's taking so long bitch, and I was like whatever.. I'm not replying now. People used to call me "bitch" in highschool, which bothered me even then, but now it really bothers me and there's no way I'm going to answer to it. Some good news is that grades were finally posted online. Yay! I can shut up about grades now! I received A, A, A-. So three A's. I can live with that, that's good. I'm happy. I feel like I'm addicted to A's now though.. I think about those four classes I signed up for in Fall and I'm just thinking I have to get A's! All A's! Just hope my hyper energy will make it through a month off and then ten weeks of class.

Somet...

Sometimes I feel so stupid. You know what I've noticed? My grammar and spelling have gone downhill. I read some of the stuff I've written in my journals, and work I've done for school, and I want to just bang my head against the wall. I blame it on B.. ever since I've been talking to him I've picked up on his spelling, grammar, and phrasing. Thanks honey. ;)

A million things

Over the weekend I basically laid out in the sun. Yesterday my family packed up our crap and headed to the beach for the day (which is interesting with my family, because my dad feels the need to bring every damn gadget ever invented to the beach). We finally got there and settled in. There were, of course, some annoying people there with crying kids and barking dogs, but it actually wasn't too bad. Some mother behind us was too busy talking to her friend to pay attention to her kid. The poor baby sat there and kept crying "mommy" but the mom was just chatting away. The sunscreen I used was spf 15, but I still got burnt in some places and tanned unevenly. It was some pretty crappy stuff because it also made me break out into hives on my arms, legs, and chest.I keep checking the school website for my grades, but they haven't posted them yet. I should be getting my finals in the mail from my Psych classes. It's like come on, hurry, I want to know how I did. You bust your butt in your classes and you kind of want to know how you did. I now have six weeks off, so I'm going to try and relax I guess. I feel hyper though, like I need to take care of everything I haven't done in the last couple months. Everything from getting a job to repairing my camera to working on my art projects to updating my writing to studying my books. I don't know when I got so hyper over things.A few days ago our little fish died. She had been laying on the bottom of her bowl (it's actually a square..) and then she finally stopped moving and died. It's sad, but she did hold on a lot longer than our other fish.There's so much I want to do, but I don't have any damn money. And if I got a job I'd be too busy working to do anything with my money. Grrr? Grrr!*Pay more. Expect less. State Farm.*

My celebrity rant

Celebrities. What's up with them? Some of them are serious artists or activists, but some of them are just jokes. Take Britney Spears, for example. Take an average American girl, with average mousy hair, and an average sounding voice. Put her in sparkles and a tiny top, colored sun glasses and dye her hair. Put her in a push up bra, airbrush her skin and put her on the cover of Rolling Stone. Heavily promote her mediocre record of songs she didn't even write. There's your star. Mariah Carey. Ooooh she's *so* tired; had a breakdown. Gee, if I woke up every morning and had someone serve me my breakfast, do my hair and makeup, drive me around town, dress me up in a slutty outfit and prop me up in front of a tv camera with cue cards to read I'd probably be tired, too. Gimme a break. These people were just average until someone "discovered" them and then plastered them all over the media. Then little Suzie and Johnny take a liking to them, and then Suzie and Johnny's friends, and then their friends, and so goes the snowball of "stars." Think about it.. nowadays you see so many "stars" and music acts.. Mandy Moore, Jessica Simpson, Five, N'Sync, Backstreet Boys, Eden's Crush, O-Town (what a dumb name), Dream, etc. Does that mean more and more talented people are being discovered? No. It just means more and more average people are being dolled up and put into show business. And I'm sick of seeing their airbrushed images and screaming fans everywhere. I'm sick of the media praising them. I'm sick of the N'Sync dolls and TRL mania. I'm sick of their lives being news. P Diddy goes on trial? Who cares?!Celebrities, get a real job!